For some wierd reason I feel depressed....

I can remember last years summer and nothing is the same. i sat here today listening to Jesse McCartney, Because You Live and i was like "yeah this sucks majorly" i have no idea where it has come from?

i dunno, i mean last years summer was when it hit me big, the summer before i was yeah ok i know how i feel, but last summer it was LIKE WOAH BIG TIME! this summer im actually doing what i wanted to last summer, but i dont know, i just think last summer i would have had so much more fun with what im doing this summer.

some people can think what they want from this and most likely everyone understands what i mean - well the "old" people will, i think...

last summer was the greatest ever, i met and made so many new friends, and i was so excited (still am!) but i dont know, its like - blah. ughhh the worst part is what if its nothing like how it is in my head?

im always the type of person to either imagine the major worst situation possible, or the ulitmate peak of the best situation known to man. right now im on the later but i know and im slightly leaning towards the fact that its going to be like the first given choice.

ok this sucks, and im kinda sounding ungrateful which i am not by any means. i have the most amazing friends, who i actually can consider friends cause they do know me...(unlike most people probably dont think they do) anyways....

what im trying to get at is, there has been a major change, not in people but things around them. i dont hate it, i just dont like it-its a toughie. something which sucks, and is annoying.

i have no idea where this has come from...
im just nervous
anxious
hyper
excited

about what lies ahead for me...
:D

its august and i leave for america on the 7th
end of story.

love
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