Honestly I just broke down in tears and cried the hardest I have done in a while. Now I'm currently blasting "Sorry" because its such a personal song to me. I have no idea where to put myself right now, and this is going to seem really rushed and no where near in detail but I feel like I need to get something down. I'm breaking down from the inside out. Tearing myself up. I hate myself for sinking so deep. Allowing myself to fall. I hate myself for allowing everything about me break. I changed my outlook on boys because of you and its the most rewarding thing I have ever done, but right now I'm regretting it cause I am severely hurting.
I want to open up your eyes and show you a whole other world. A world I know you would be comfortable in. A world that I would make you comfortable in. I've got this pit, gut, nervous feeling hanging in my stomach now. I really need you to be here, and just hold me. That's it. That's all I will ever need. I feel like nothing will ever make this feeling go away. I could write a thousand songs or more and nothing will ever be able to take the feeling away. The pain. The love. The hurt. The happiness.
I hate being in two minds over everything. I hate no knowing. I just need you to wake up, sooner rather than later. Everything needs to fall in place cause I feel like I'm depending on it. I know its fear of rejection that holds me back, but if I am rejected, knocked back, then I know I would definitely die inside.
Just so you know, I'm thinking about you today...
Honestly right now I am the happiest I have ever been. Tomorrow is a fantastic day in my eyes every single year. The person I think a lot about is completely happy. He's just the one I fell in love with. The boy who just caught my attention and I've hung in knowing that deep down somewhere under his guard 'he' is still there and today I saw 'him' again. I will never ever feel this way about anyone else ever. Unconditional love. Forever and ever.
Thank you God for bringing him back to me, even though I know he never actually left.
- A girl with a healed heart
Thank you God for bringing him back to me, even though I know he never actually left.
- A girl with a healed heart
NEW YORK CITY
TIMES SQUARE
MIDNIGHT
A LITTLE BIT LONGER
3 BROTHERS
20,000+ PEOPLE
TIMES SQUARE BEING BOUGHT TO A STANDSTILL
BURNING UP TOUR
MADISON SQUARE GARDEN
SORRY - JONAS BROTHERS
THE ONLY ENGLISH GIRL IN THE CROWD OF PEOPLE, MY ACCENT ATTRACTING SO MANY FANS...HAHAHA
FINALLY GETTING INTO THE STORE AND BUYING THE CD
FEELING THE HAPPIEST I'VE EVER FELT
SO MANY MEMORIES
ONE YEAR LATER AND I STILL LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, LIKE I DID BACK THEN, IF NOT STRONGER. YOU HAVE MY HEART. ALWAYS HAVE, ALWAYS WILL.
<3
TIMES SQUARE
MIDNIGHT
A LITTLE BIT LONGER
3 BROTHERS
20,000+ PEOPLE
TIMES SQUARE BEING BOUGHT TO A STANDSTILL
BURNING UP TOUR
MADISON SQUARE GARDEN
SORRY - JONAS BROTHERS
THE ONLY ENGLISH GIRL IN THE CROWD OF PEOPLE, MY ACCENT ATTRACTING SO MANY FANS...HAHAHA
FINALLY GETTING INTO THE STORE AND BUYING THE CD
FEELING THE HAPPIEST I'VE EVER FELT
SO MANY MEMORIES
ONE YEAR LATER AND I STILL LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART, LIKE I DID BACK THEN, IF NOT STRONGER. YOU HAVE MY HEART. ALWAYS HAVE, ALWAYS WILL.
<3
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