Just me and my laptop.

It's 00:01 and it's officially Wednesday. I'm laying in bed with my laptop and I'm in one of those moods where I'm hovering. I finished my final ALevel examination today and just felt the relief fall off my shoulders. But now I'm sitting here and I don't know where to next after this. I know I'm hoping for uni, but I think I'm in a moment in my life where I'm stuck with the next step.

So I'm sitting here with my laptop and I'm going to write. I haven't done this in a long time so lets just see how it goes...

I'm always like this when it comes to a certain person, which I know is ridiculous yet I can't let go. And I let them control my life for me because they are the only part of it that makes me happy yet I'm "sad"as I'm typing this? I know it doesn't make sense, don't judge me.

Right now in this moment I just want them to leave because then I know they're 8 hours away and I don't have to care about feeling anger towards others etc...

I don't know what it is that this person has over me, but it can no longer be considered stupid if it's taken up the past four - five years of my life can it?

All I can think of is this person, and how they are, what they're doing, thinking? And then I get angry at myself because deep down inside I know the other person couldn't care less about how I am, what I'm doing or thinking.

I need to stop getting sucked back in.

It's gotta be love right? The reason that I cry or can't think straight for days. I feel sick to the stomach with butterflies and anxiousness. I'm sounding like a right depressant. Maybe I should be on anti-depressants, I no longer know anymore.

I know one thing though, I'm sick of getting shot down at any chance I want to talk about it. I know I talk about the same things, all the time, but still that's my relief. Maybe I should start doing videos to myself, because if no one else is listening then...

So and overall conclusion is I am a mess, and I sorta like it...

Fine line between love and hate?

-L-

Music Review: Miley Cyrus - Can't Be Tamed.

Hannah Montana, Miley Cyrus, whatever you want to call her there is not denying that this girl has some serious talent. Can't Be Tamed is an album which I wasn't expecting from Miley, her previous tracks seeming very school girly - with a huge Hannah Montana emphasis still very much present within her lyrics.

However upon listening to the album I found myself pleasantly surprised. I found myself wanting to listen to the tracks which did hold some beautiful lyrics, but the upbeat tracks that are presence made me want to dance more than anything. Each song upon the album is strong and could easily be a single on its own. I would just like to point out that upon praising this album there is some sort of desperation in which she portrays the need to move away from Hannah Montana. Whilst the lyrics hold meaning, the music which they are placed against has nothing in comparison - almost being rushed.

"Liberty Walk", opens the album with a Ke$ha feel, which is something that I don't want. I want Miley to be original and not record something that she thinks may sell, or should I say Hollywood Records thinks will sell. The track tends to repeat a lot of the same lyrics sending out the message of taking control. "Who Owns My Heart" opens like something I would hear on a Lady Gaga album, with lyrics of "Who owns my heart, is it love or is it art?" and again I feel disappointed in some way because I don't like how so far she's copied two of 2009/10's strongest artists. Whilst "Can't Be Tamed" is strong with its repetition of lyrics I'm given a clubby track which by the time to I get to third track I'm expecting. A couple of other tracks follow the same route, until we get to the ballads which do provoke some sort of reaction however I don't feel anything other than repeated themes from previous Miley songs - "Stay" being the only difference in the essence that you are almost given an image alongside the music.

I have to say that my two favourite tracks on this album are "Scars" and "Robot". "Scars" I feel is a gritty song, but with truth within the lyrics. The two polar opposites are what make the song so good. Whilst "Robot" is a good overall tune, which could get any girl dancing around her bedroom or onto that dance floor.

Overall Miley's album was something that I wasn't expecting, but on the other hand I was. Her album is strong but only down to key songs like "Stay", "Scars" and "Robot". I believe that had this album been released with each song being strong, without essences of copying, she could have took down anything and anyone.

I would give this album 7/10.

-L-

C'MON ENGLAND!

Review: Barry M 304: Mint

This week's review is Barry M's 304 Mint Green nail varnish.

All my reviews of late seem to be nail varnishes but this is because right now I love them! Summer allows you to experiment with different colours where as autumn and winter, nails usually consists of black, and deep rouge (well for me anyway!).

Like with any other product I'm gonna start off with the price. Once again I don't know the actual price but it was definitely less than the nail varnish I bought from Rimmel last review. The price was no more than £3, which I believe to be very good especially for Barry M nail varnishes.

I am in love with this colour nail varnish, and I would definitely recommend that everyone goes out there and gets it because I believe this colour will be a staple for summer. It looks good against pale skin and tan skin which is always a plus too, haha!

As for the actual product itself, two coats applied and you get the real colour which isn't too bright, just enough. Chipping wise it last long, but before and after applying I put a base coat on my nails to avoid colour staying on my nail.

Overall I would definitely by the product again and am already thinking of doing so even though I haven't used the first bottle I bought! I love the colour and usually I'm one to stay away from bright colours but I will most certainly be going back to Barry M again for more amazing summer colours.

I give it 8/10.

-L-